Well, the time has come! I am leaving for BYU Friday. I started packing today and was overwhelmed. I can't believe I have reached this point in my life. For so long I have worked and dreamed about this intersection in my road of life, that I am in awe that it is finally here. I feel like I am in a dream and am going to wake up any second. I don't think there has been anyone more excited to go to BYU than me! For so many reasons I am beyond the normal capacity of excitement. :)
However, as I was packing I suddenly became melancholy and nervous. I kept thinking to myself "what am I doing?" I couldn't concentrate on my task because I was so brought down. I then pulled out a letter my mom had written me a long time ago when I was on a Youth Trek celebrating the pioneers. She talked about dreams and the meaning they give in life. Near the end of the letter my mother says, "while you walk on your trek...called 'real life', dream of your unborn daughters...That dream will always give you the strength to take the next step." As I read that statement by my inspired mother, I was reminded of why I was going to BYU - to build the kingdom of God. I was going there to educate myself and grow so that I could become the best mother I could possibly be some day. So that I could teach my children the way the Lord would have me teach them and raise them up to serve the Lord and their fellow men.
I now have the courage I prayed from the Lord to have. I thanked my Heavenly Father and quickly got back to work with a smile on my face.
I am grateful for a Heavenly Father who listens to our cries and answers our prayers. I know He is there and loves us more than we can imagine. I am grateful for a mother who is close to the spirit and loves me so very much.
So with my new found courage I say: "Watch out BYU! Here I come!"
